1 year ago today, on Monday April 16, I headed to the "UPS" store (the first of many trips to come) with an application and check all filled out to our adoption agency AWAA.
We had finally decided to walk the journey towards adopting our daughter from China!
In some ways this past year has gone by so fast, and in other ways it seems to have dragged on forever. As I sat this morning pondering over this last year, I was extremely blessed to look back and see the amazing journey we have been on and continue on.
I remember the weekend before that Monday... Tim was having a blast figuring out how much we were "worth." You see, in order to adopt from China, there are so many criteria, and one is that you have to have at least a certain $ amount of net worth. Since we no longer own a home, we had fun being creative and going through our house looking at all the items we own and finding how much we were actually "worth."
I remember us both in tears as we prayed for the first time that weekend not whether or not we should adopt, and not where we should adopt from, but for "our daughter!" It all became so real 1 year ago! I remember being so filled with emotion as I realized the amazing gift that God had given us to be able to pray for our daughter before we ever held her in our arms, just like we had prayed for our boys while they were in my womb.
As we prayed then, we were unsure as to whether or not she was even born, or in her mother's womb, or even conceived yet. We saw her then, as we do now, as "our daughter" that God has graciously allowed us the priviledge of having.
1 year ago today we didn't know who she was, or where in China she was, and today we still don't know those answers. Yet I can tell you that God has allowed us the blessing of forming a bond with this "unknown" (to us) child that we can't hardly explain!
I take great comfort in knowing that the God of the universe knew then and knows now who she is! More importantly, I find peace in knowing that God perfectly hand knit her to be our daughter!!
While she may not physically resemble us, I often wonder what "traits" God has given her in order to resemble us...
As we continue to wait patiently for her, I have no choice but to place "my control" of the situation in the loving hands of the only One who should be in control! I have to remind myself daily to "trust and obey." I trust our Heavenly Father, and I chose to obey the call and be obedient to His Word by being a faithful follower and disciple of my Lord, Jesus Christ!
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